I'm rummaging through boxes and suitcases tonight - looking for clothes that my kids can wear to church tomorrow.
And it feels weird.
Settling into our rent house - over a thousand miles away from the only church my little blondes have ever known....it hits me hard....
I'll walk into a church building tomorrow and I won't know how to sign my kids up for class. I won't know what kid to drop off where. I won't hug hardly any necks and I won't be able to ask about anybody's Mama - because I won't know their Mama. I won't talk to anyone about last week's connect group, I won't speak to anyone about the next women's event, I won't leave my seat to intercede during prayer ministry time, and I won't wave at anyone on my way back out to the van.
And tonight....this makes me sad. A little excited to see what God has planned for us here.....but vulnerable and timid and nervous.....and sad.
(With Jesus there is always a 'however')
....when we bust out of what's known simply because we feel like God told us to.....He shows up in all kinds of crazy ways....
....peace, provision, calm, joy.
And this is what makes it all worth it. He's proven Himself so faithful to meet us out on the limb.
Nothing compares, really.
So tomorrow, I'll slip my Bible into my over-packed book bag, pray over services here and there, dress my kids in wrinkled clothes, drive down some highways with the help of a GPS, walk into a church building with that 'I'm new and completely lost' look, drop my children off with teachers I do not know, listen to a sermon with scriptures read from a different translation, inquire about all kinds of things from service opportunities to first and last names, and then I'll buckle all of my kids back into their seat belts - and we'll talk about what they learned that morning...and what they are going to do with it.
Because yes, He has us here to do...to learn...to experience.... and He will accomplish those things even if I am feeling a tad out of it.
Especially if I'm feeling a tad out of it.
Because getting outside of ourselves is where He really wants us.
And He is giddy about revealing Himself to us there.