Motherhood. It's so invasive, isn't it?
It's a blessing, a gift, an honor, a miracle - but yes....down right invasive. It's that way from the start - from the two pink lines.
Starting there.... the concern and protectiveness - they invade something fierce.
And then it never stops.
After the invasion of having a person occupying your mid-section.....they come into the world and they invade your sleeping, your eating, your showering, your marriage, your schedule, your whole life - this new being just takes over all your territory.
And isn't it all just grand?
I can't help but smile as I type it all out here.
But..... there are moments when a Mama needs another Mama.
There are times when we need a female (other than our own parent) who has walked this road before - to come and pull us along a little.
And now that this home houses three of those little invaders (with one early wee one housed in Heaven) - I've become desperate for just that. Mentors. Warriors. Teachers in the things of the home - the things of a gracious wife - the things of a healthy marriage - the things of Christian motherhood.
So much so - that I've been on my knees over it. But if I'm being honest - I've also been feeling guilt over it, too. Because if I were just strong enough, if I just had it a little more together, if I just wasn't so weak - I wouldn't need anyone to come and show me the way of holy success in these things. That's been my thinking.
So the whole time I'm crying out to Him over this - I'm reeling inside because I feel like I shouldn't need the help. I feel guilty because it should just all come so naturally to me, right?
But our gracious God.
He swooped through right in the midst of all this - and He led me straight to Titus 2.
It's Paul's letter to his "true child in a common faith". (He calls Timothy something similar, by the way. Oh, what a wild and wonderful spiritual father Paul must have been to them!)
And in the second chapter of this somewhat controversial book - Paul instructs Titus to encourage the older women to 'teach what is good', and to 'train the young women to love their husbands and children....'
What did that say? Did Paul just tell Titus to tell the older women to teach the younger women how to live out motherhood and marriage?
So those women...they needed it too?
And this is good for me to know.
And it might be good for you to know, too. Whether you've been a Mama for decades and still feel like you could use some help - or you're a woman who has seen the two pink lines only to see them fade in loss - or you're a women who longs to get that positive pt but hasn't .....don't feel guilty over needing some guidance and comradery through it all.
He knows. Ask like I am - and trust that in some form or fashion He will provide. Even if He simply gives us Himself - The Abba Father.....
...... He is enough.
But if He provides real, in the flesh women for you to sit under - oh glorify Him for it. Accept it, soak it in, and be grateful. Be vulnerable. Be humble enough to accept the instruction.
And then someday - when a little more of this is behind us - when the newness of motherhood turns into a seasoned motherhood....you'll be called on to turn back and pour in - to those young women that walk this road a few years behind you.
Know...that it's biblical.
And know that you aren't the only one needing a little support along the way.....
Because your friend here? She is too :)